A random, boring post from a random, fun day.

While studying today, I was distracted and spent a lot of time and energy worrying about the future, grades, and my professor. I realized that I over-fear failure and over-worship success. Counter-intuitively, this de-motivates me to work. I love learning, but when my heart gets all wrapped up in “achievement,” I freak out and avoid trying. So, I repented and prayed. Tonight, J and I celebrated Valentines Day Belated. He made a great dinner and had flowers and wine waiting when I got home from studying!! I talked to J about my realization. He said he’ll like me the same if I make all C’s. I mostly believe him.